Monday, October 14, 2013

Excuses & Truth, Its a Choice

I, am not, a person who has every right to comment about anything. Let's just say I'm returning a favor here (to myself). You could say I have conflicting personality and indeed yes, I'm used to it. So there's nothing new about tantrums, frustrations and annoyance that rush into my bloodstream like a cocaine. What I wanna earn is simple because I really hate to rewrite some same lame old grandmother story. I keep on teaching the wolf with the same red riding hood stories. Wolf was a good friend to Red but wolfie did a grave mistakes by eating up her grandma. Pathetic, (what I thought of it). So wolf and red riding hood is never meant to get along. Red will always wanna shoot wolf dead.

Sometimes when you think people don't make sense, stop paused and look at yourself in a mirror. Hear what your reflection get to tell you, if you listen carefully you'll get it. Its really annoying to tell people like for example "I cant change my $&€£¥ because that makes me as who i am". Hello there, those kind of thing that you are not born with, its a choice. Its a fucking choice and you can change it. A little advise, go for some self reflection, there's a different between excuses & truth. 

Everybody has limit, has ppl tried to push yours? You know Red riding hood can just take off her gun and shoot the wolf dead. If you think you are a motivator by pushing people beyond their limit for non life goal related, you are delusional ! These kind of people who cant tell the boundaries and the open field are just irritating. You give them open field but they aimed for the boundaries. Such a strange people I've met in the society. If people tell you what is their non-life goal related limit, can you do smth like "PLEASE RESPECT" the choice. If the boundaries were the bad thing, wasn't it making you a crazy asshole to drag ppl making something bad in their life. Don't just get into someones life and think you know their world. Everybody has different world! If things work in your world doesn't mean it works in another's.  

And finally, laughter is the best medicine but if it was a poison wud you take it?!! People who can't tell between sensitivity & lacking of sense are just unbelievable. Tell yourself you're right when its obviously wrong is double wrong.  So stop making excuses with choice, stop poking people boundaries and stop making fun of the choice & boundaries! This is an advise for me too!

Sunday, October 13, 2013

What Was Your


WHAT WAS YOUR

1. Last beverage: Iced Shaken Lemon Tea, Starbucks
2. Last phone call: Lynette thru Jay
3. Last text message: Lili, I reached Times Square & lepaking at Starbucks
4. Last song you listened to: Pass Me By R5
5. Last time you cried: 2 years ago!
6. Dated someone twice: Like how? I dont get this question, maybe NO?
7. Been cheated on: Frankly many times, everybody lied, right?
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Not gonna happen, ever!
9. Lost someone special: Grandma :(
10. Been depressed: Yeah sure
11. Been drunk and threw up: If coke and coffee does dat, then maybe yes...I don't drink. 

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.White
13. Red
14. Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2013)
15. Made a new friend: yes..a lot ! Made best colleagues too :)
16. Fallen out of love: I dont know what love really is, I dont do this anymore, seriously
17. Laughed until you cried: Everyday? Hahaha these ppl are just too funny
18. Met someone who changed you: I think I did, kawan cik monn bergedel
19. Found out who your true friends are: I know them, who they are
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Not that I know of but guess there always such a thing right,
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: My childhood imaginary friend, oh they are all Caucasian
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Mostly..
23. How many kids do you want to have: Not so soon
24. Do you have any pets: Nay...
25. Do you want to change your name: Yeah...please dont call me Siti
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Countless activity!
27. What time did you wake up today: 7 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching fireworks ;)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Rugby World Cup 2015!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Last Sunday
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing...
32. What are you listening to right now: Some Tamil song on bus radio
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom Richardson, my best business partner
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Still about ppl rolling eyes on me...
35. Most visited webpage: For this week is Business Week
36. What's your real name: Aisyah
37. Nicknames: So many, recent one is Loa
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: cancer.
40. Male or female: F
41. Elementary School: skkd..
42. Middle School: SMKTD
43. High school/college:Sains Seri
Puteri,KMPh,Unimas gemilang
44. Hair colour: Brown
45. Long or short: Short
46. Height: 160cm..
47. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes, officially confessed, he handled it well, hahaha
48: What do you like about yourself: I'm cool? Am i?
49. Piercings: Let me think again..
50. Tattoos:Dun even think about it,i care for my skin
51. Righty or lefty: righty.. 

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Dont even bother asking
53. First piercing: Earlobe
54. First best friend: So many of em..
55. First sport you joined: Hockey
 56. First vacation: Langkawi, I guess I dunno I followed my parents alot when I was a kid
58. First pair of trainers: Cant remember,
59. Eating: Cheerios
60. Drinking: Evian..
61. I'm about to: Boot up my macbook
62. Listening to: Some random Vietnamese speak super loud in the phone 
63. Waiting on: Time to go reach home!

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids: Uhm..
65. Get Married: Errr...
66. Career: Learning & Dev Specialist

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes: eyes..
68. Hugs or kisses: BOTH~equal roles drive my head best
69. Shorter or taller: middle..
70. Older or Younger: Young at heart!
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous!
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Neither
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud?
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship..
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Troublemaker 

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger:no..
77. Drank hard liquor: no..
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Hardly
79. Sex on first date: Sorry but whore did that! I'm AGAINST ppl who think its ok to have sex on their first meet, call me old fashioned 
80. Broken someone's heart: Always
82. Been arrested: Never
83. Turned someone down: kindda
84. Cried when someone died: ya.. 85. Fallen for a friend: Yes..halloween ;)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sure..i'm the greatest creation of my lord
87. Miracles: yes..
88. Love at first sight: yes..terlampau  byk sight hahaha
89. Heaven: yes.. 
90. Santa Claus: for wat?
91. Kiss on the first date: I think I shud just kiss someone that I love trully NOT someone that I feel like kissing for no reason, felt so dumb!
92. Angels:Yes!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No, not my department,
95. Did you sing today: Of course
96. Ever cheated on somebody: For good sake,
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Form 1
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: ...that day after halloween!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love: ...maybe 
100. Posting this as 100 truths: Believe what you wanna believe! Haha

Sunday, January 6, 2013

He dont care

Tammy dont care at all ! He rather sit here listen to gay songs..

2013 its my thing!

Was it me or the i havent been enlighten enough. Its been a savory yet challenging year. Where I think denial is the biggest stage in phase because of my fear over my own self (to who had given me so many firsts). Im just incompetant for anybody and the fear of dark side acceptance. Thank you anyway 2012 its been a great company of these 365 days! Welcome 2013 i look forward for a fantastic year from you.

Not much of plans because Im just gon cruise the day and fasten my seatbelt to enjoy this life. Speaking of love, im not sure its been a great 2 years without it. If its gonna give troubles and shitty thing, please no thanks im better of on my own. Indeed conflicting with my personality. I live to proof I am able to stand on both feet. I live to tell myself there's nothing you cant do in this world. There's no point of keeping something tht makes you feel thrown out or hanging in the middle of nowhere with one last sip of oxygen. I'm not ready to die (literary) for nonsense. Why make urself feel important while the reality says no to me. When it says no means its a no and I dont favor of standing there feeling insulted over my OWN shameless behavior. Because I noe Im stupid when I begin to indulge myself with "that". So I always beg my heart and tell it that everything is a trap tho reality says "maybe". There's nothing certain, because I only appreciate certainty.

Lets embrace 2013 and make a difference! I love my world just the way it should be. I dont force people to join me. Im not desperate and I dont like certain things because other person like it. Thts just my thing, this is my thing :)
Embrace it!! xx