Excuses & Truth, Its a Choice

I, am not, a person who has every right to comment about anything. Let's just say I'm returning a favor here (to myself). You could say I have conflicting personality and indeed yes, I'm used to it. So there's nothing new about tantrums, frustrations and annoyance that rush into my bloodstream like a cocaine. What I wanna earn is simple because I really hate to rewrite some same lame old grandmother story. I keep on teaching the wolf with the same red riding hood stories. Wolf was a good friend to Red but wolfie did a grave mistakes by eating up her grandma. Pathetic, (what I thought of it). So wolf and red riding hood is never meant to get along. Red will always wanna shoot wolf dead.

Sometimes when you think people don't make sense, stop paused and look at yourself in a mirror. Hear what your reflection get to tell you, if you listen carefully you'll get it. Its really annoying to tell people like for example "I cant change my $&€£¥ because that makes me as who i am". Hello there, those kind of thing that you are not born with, its a choice. Its a fucking choice and you can change it. A little advise, go for some self reflection, there's a different between excuses & truth. 

Everybody has limit, has ppl tried to push yours? You know Red riding hood can just take off her gun and shoot the wolf dead. If you think you are a motivator by pushing people beyond their limit for non life goal related, you are delusional ! These kind of people who cant tell the boundaries and the open field are just irritating. You give them open field but they aimed for the boundaries. Such a strange people I've met in the society. If people tell you what is their non-life goal related limit, can you do smth like "PLEASE RESPECT" the choice. If the boundaries were the bad thing, wasn't it making you a crazy asshole to drag ppl making something bad in their life. Don't just get into someones life and think you know their world. Everybody has different world! If things work in your world doesn't mean it works in another's.  

And finally, laughter is the best medicine but if it was a poison wud you take it?!! People who can't tell between sensitivity & lacking of sense are just unbelievable. Tell yourself you're right when its obviously wrong is double wrong.  So stop making excuses with choice, stop poking people boundaries and stop making fun of the choice & boundaries! This is an advise for me too!

What Was Your

WHAT WAS YOUR

1. Last beverage: Iced Shaken Lemon Tea, Starbucks

2. Last phone call: Lynette thru Jay

3. Last text message: Lili, I reached Times Square & lepaking at Starbucks

4. Last song you listened to: Pass Me By R5

5. Last time you cried: 2 years ago!

6. Dated someone twice: Like how? I dont get this question, maybe NO?

7. Been cheated on: Frankly many times, everybody lied, right?

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Not gonna happen, ever!

9. Lost someone special: Grandma :(

10. Been depressed: Yeah sure

11. Been drunk and threw up: If coke and coffee does dat, then maybe yes...I don't drink. 

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12.White

13. Red

14. Purple

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2013)

15. Made a new friend: yes..a lot ! Made best colleagues too :)

16. Fallen out of love: I dont know what love really is, I dont do this anymore, seriously

17. Laughed until you cried: Everyday? Hahaha these ppl are just too funny

18. Met someone who changed you: I think I did, kawan cik monn bergedel

19. Found out who your true friends are: I know them, who they are

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Not that I know of but guess there always such a thing right,

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: My childhood imaginary friend, oh they are all Caucasian

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Mostly..

23. How many kids do you want to have: Not so soon

24. Do you have any pets: Nay...

25. Do you want to change your name: Yeah...please dont call me Siti

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Countless activity!

27. What time did you wake up today: 7 am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching fireworks ;)

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Rugby World Cup 2015!

30. Last time you saw your Mother: Last Sunday

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing...

32. What are you listening to right now: Some Tamil song on bus radio

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Tom Richardson, my best business partner

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Still about ppl rolling eyes on me...

35. Most visited webpage: For this week is Business Week

36. What's your real name: Aisyah

37. Nicknames: So many, recent one is Loa

38. Relationship Status: Single

39. Zodiac sign: cancer.

40. Male or female: F

41. Elementary School: skkd..

42. Middle School: SMKTD

43. High school/college:Sains Seri

Puteri,KMPh,Unimas gemilang

44. Hair colour: Brown

45. Long or short: Short

46. Height: 160cm..

47. Do you have a crush on someone: Yes, officially confessed, he handled it well, hahaha

48: What do you like about yourself: I'm cool? Am i?

49. Piercings: Let me think again..

50. Tattoos:Dun even think about it,i care for my skin

51. Righty or lefty: righty.. 

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: Dont even bother asking

53. First piercing: Earlobe

54. First best friend: So many of em..

55. First sport you joined: Hockey

 56. First vacation: Langkawi, I guess I dunno I followed my parents alot when I was a kid

58. First pair of trainers: Cant remember,

59. Eating: Cheerios

60. Drinking: Evian..

61. I'm about to: Boot up my macbook

62. Listening to: Some random Vietnamese speak super loud in the phone 

63. Waiting on: Time to go reach home!

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids: Uhm..

65. Get Married: Errr...

66. Career: Learning & Dev Specialist

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: eyes..

68. Hugs or kisses: BOTH~equal roles drive my head best

69. Shorter or taller: middle..

70. Older or Younger: Young at heart!

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Neither

73. Sensitive or loud: Loud?

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship..

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Troublemaker 

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger:no..

77. Drank hard liquor: no..

78. Lost glasses/contacts: Hardly

79. Sex on first date: Sorry but whore did that! I'm AGAINST ppl who think its ok to have sex on their first meet, call me old fashioned 

80. Broken someone's heart: Always

82. Been arrested: Never

83. Turned someone down: kindda

84. Cried when someone died: ya.. 85. Fallen for a friend: Yes..halloween ;)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: sure..i'm the greatest creation of my lord

87. Miracles: yes..

88. Love at first sight: yes..terlampau  byk sight hahaha

89. Heaven: yes.. 

90. Santa Claus: for wat?

91. Kiss on the first date: I think I shud just kiss someone that I love trully NOT someone that I feel like kissing for no reason, felt so dumb!

92. Angels:Yes!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No, not my department,

95. Did you sing today: Of course

96. Ever cheated on somebody: For good sake,

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: Form 1

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be: ...that day after halloween!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: ...maybe 

100. Posting this as 100 truths: Believe what you wanna believe! Haha

He dont care

Tammy dont care at all ! He rather sit here listen to gay songs..

2013 its my thing!

Was it me or the i havent been enlighten enough. Its been a savory yet challenging year. Where I think denial is the biggest stage in phase because of my fear over my own self (to who had given me so many firsts). Im just incompetant for anybody and the fear of dark side acceptance. Thank you anyway 2012 its been a great company of these 365 days! Welcome 2013 i look forward for a fantastic year from you.

Not much of plans because Im just gon cruise the day and fasten my seatbelt to enjoy this life. Speaking of love, im not sure its been a great 2 years without it. If its gonna give troubles and shitty thing, please no thanks im better of on my own. Indeed conflicting with my personality. I live to proof I am able to stand on both feet. I live to tell myself there's nothing you cant do in this world. There's no point of keeping something tht makes you feel thrown out or hanging in the middle of nowhere with one last sip of oxygen. I'm not ready to die (literary) for nonsense. Why make urself feel important while the reality says no to me. When it says no means its a no and I dont favor of standing there feeling insulted over my OWN shameless behavior. Because I noe Im stupid when I begin to indulge myself with "that". So I always beg my heart and tell it that everything is a trap tho reality says "maybe". There's nothing certain, because I only appreciate certainty.

Lets embrace 2013 and make a difference! I love my world just the way it should be. I dont force people to join me. Im not desperate and I dont like certain things because other person like it. Thts just my thing, this is my thing :)
Embrace it!! xx

Dare to Dream

Anyone know how do I apply for multiple entry visa? (Krik krik krik krik, cricket sound). Well thank you very much for your answer ladies and gents. Obviously I've seen stats saying that this blog has visitors from US, Korea and Malaysia. I really hope they find something here in this crappy blog. Anyway, I cant wait for my solo vacation this January , my gay vacation in July and my ultimate visit this November :O !! Its time to make things real because I've been living in a dream :)

Travelling is always and always be my favorite thing! Im embracing my work life balance, hoooray ! One thing that inspire me "dare to dream". Never stop dreaming because most of your good plan can come from dreaming.

Happy Holiday Peeps

Hello sluggish Saturday, I've got nothing much to brag. I'm pretty much stoked and in absolute holiday mood. Yeah after i stupidly deleted a whole essay of what im suppose to post. I'm rewriting the whole sentences which i dun even remember what was it. Such a damn copy paste thingy. I hope everyone been enjoying their weekend too :) my schedule is revolving around being on bed, watching old movies and trolling on the fridge. I am this dope :O who cares hahaha! I dun have to impress the whole world and ended up not being me. Frankly, the world still moving even if im me :D my personality will kills dozen of dolphin :) or even making a flying birds stop flapping their wings and die. Such a horrific metaphores!! Well thats make life like my life. Nahh no time to pleased the unnecessary. If you like me then you are if you dont, its a free country and free world. I wont kill you for stealing my oxygen and space in this land. I certainly know how to live and I dont depend on no one. God give me 2 feet to stand so I'm using it to the fullest :)

Just one thing I notice in this society. They always wish for the best person to be around them. No offense, a friend would like a decent friend, a girl trolling for a nice guy and a guy expecting a good girl (you noe what u want, no time to explain,lol). These bunch of peeps often expect persons around them to be exactly like they wish. Wohooo if u do it on me, you definitely in a wrong house. I will change for good (god will) but I wont change for anybody. I will change because I want to and I'll make sure I embrace it. Change is not a one night thing its a process. Even we take a year to learn ABC ;)

Alright enough on change, next week is a festive celebration. Happy holiday everyone :) love this virtual world xx

Question Part i

Do you have diary?
I have diary yes I do and the story in there is different from here. In there you could find the darkest side of me and the weakest point of me. Everything that you could ever wish you see in me most probably in there.

Why do you love writing diary?
Some stuff you cant just utter out. You cant even spell it right with your tongue thus i feel better with the ink on papers. Some stories that you cant spill to anyone, just you and yourself need to know.

Name a song that can describe you?
I would say "I'm like a bird" bu Nelly Furtado. I always confuse, easily confuse and keep on confuse. Well i think thats describe me the best.

As a girl what do you believe in?
I always believe in not to be needy and always be independant because life is so uncertain or anything and everything. I need to have the guts to live on my both feet. As a girl I think I shud stop yacking too ;D

Whats the worst thing you could ever imagine?
World ends at 21 Dec because I still have lotsa things to acheive and I dont wanna waste any minutes. Time starts from now now now. The worst thing i could ever imagine is misunderstanding. I hate it in whatever way it is. Misunderstanding always leads to dissapointment and regrets.

Whats the best thing you could ever imagine?
Most probably my travel plans. I love vacations and tht is the best thing i could imagine. Even if it takes alone cruising it i will love it :) other best thing that i could ever imagine is i own an ice cream house :)